Musings on Being Useful

So much has gone on...I've gotten caught up and neglected to commit to an important act that nourishes me, what pleases me. I'm certain I have something useful to share in my writing, but yet, when in the midst, I simply don't commit to doing so.

I’ve done a lot of writing over the last few weeks, just none in this blog. Which, kinda goes against my proclamation several weeks back to really hunker down and post more…So, it’s time to play catch up and take a look at what went wrong the last time I committed to sticking to it. This has me thinking about the things that would be best to hone in on, to share on the blog in other words. I feel like blog posts need to be useful , among other things. No pressure, right? But in all reality, it's not like I have a huge following with people chomping at the bit! So really...its NOT huge pressure!

I think part of my delay is my historical tendency to hold too tightly those things that are dear to me. Heck I even do this with my dog sometimes! But more importantly with the esoteric side of life, I do it by witholding. It's a combination of not doing it justice (as in, I can't possibly put that into words) and I think a fear of losing "what's good" if I open up. I've learned (slowly) that this is a falsehood. No amount of goodness can really be taken from you by sharing it with others, with the world for that matter. In fact, it only expands and inspires.

Duh.

OK, so, my last problem pertaining to this is being wrapped up in being too busy and not putting a schedule together to share the useful thoughts (or thoughts on being useful, as is the case here). In theory, if I make time for it, it will come. Even my "hoarding the goods" tendency can be overcome by my excitement to share something positive.

Applying Yourself

This morning I've set out to finalize graduate school applications and I'm feeling a strong case of the blahs. I've done everything BUT work on my application work this morning. So now my work on working on myself over the years has me asking if it's a true "blah" feeling or is it the feeling that overtakes one about to embark on something great...one risking failure along the way? Perhaps I am just tired, it's still only in my warm up part of the day and I've had a long working weekend. I find myself searching for the passion, the excitement, the motivation I felt the last few weeks when I was embarking on the application process.

And so I will just start, because as I learned in yoga, showing up is the most important part of the process. I'll start out by listing the objectives of my writing and I'll allow myself to let go of what comes out from there. Perhaps a brief yoga asana practice will also inspire if I still don't have clarity from there.

Really Digging the Destuckification

I've recently become reacquainted with Havi Books' blog, The Fluent Self. Not only do I like her whole purpose and concept of "unstucking" yourself from unhelpful patterns in your life, I really like her approach and communication style. Not only is this the type of influence I needed to find right now but I also find her to be personally inspirational and motivating. I downloaded her free sample of the "Emergency Calming Techniques" product and she's got some great things to share to the world. (by the way, no one is paying me to say this.) Thanks Havi!

Staying in Motion When Unsureness Hits

I became inspired today when reading a recent post on White Hot Truth on the "I don't know conspiracy". I would be a complete fraud if I didn't admit I've been my own victim to this very downfall many times. When looking at my own life, and recent surge of happiness and empowerment, where previously I found little, this is one of the areas that's really made a difference for me.

So you come across a lousy situation or state of mind and you simply stand in "I don't know what to do"...now what?, Danielle's posting offers up a very good point. That mentality doesn't serve you. However, that mentality is the first to creep in during the tough points in life. This is the mentality that has people in a lot of unhappy situations.

Reading the post has made me conscious of times when i'm confused but yet empowered and instead say "I will figure it out" (even when I really don't know yet)! I'm then coming from a stance of preparedness and a motive of action. The inactivity of simply stating "I don't know" and then doing nothing from there is of no use if it isn't followed by resolution to find a new possibility.