Lack of Posting, Lack of Commitment?

It's been over two months since I've posted. I've had plenty of things to say, to be sure. I've been entrenched in taking on some small writing projects, which now seem to have temporarily subsided. More importantly though, I've also been mucking around in my own messes in life. Only recently noticing that I haven't been consistently paying attention to me and what energizes me. Fluctuating between living through others and living the day-to-day -- sans much exciting inspiration. yawn...right? When I look at how I see myself, how loved ones see me, it's not a boring person. Yet in many ways, I have been boring lately.

I'm facing a new commitment. A new commitment to pay attention to me. In the past I've felt like a good me is one who is helpful to others and needs to focus on fixing external problems. Yet this has only created an internal problem. A me who isn't present very often. A me who isn't able to actually be effective at giving myself to others...because I'm not me enough. Make sense?

In the spirit of Thanksgiving week, here's a great mood-lifting site to be thankful for: 1000 Awesome Things. I hope they don't stop at 1000.

I'm also thankful for noticing my lack of me-ness, above. I'm thankful that I can wake up and make a new fresh commitment that speaks from the heart, for the heart.