Staying Focused

I've been having trouble lately staying focused on my personal goal to attend graduate school for becoming a community counselor. I don't doubt for second that this career is an ideal and rewarding path for me. Yet...I haven't made it real enough yet.

I'm guilty of letting it slide. Taking the easy path. Or so I tricked myself into believing.

The path I have historically taken which leads me to marginal success and a mediocre feeling of accomplishment. Did I mention zero in the realm of fulfillment and feeling of usefulness to the world?

Yeah...not a winning formula, though I've stayed alive.

When I look back on that formula, I'm still living it in many ways. Though I have my graduate school interview in tote, I'm not there yet. I want to keep the passion for this career path a daily felt experience. But I let it slide. I don't forget, but I don't stay envigorated by it. I have become consumed by external things, and as a result become grumpy and close to resentful about those other things. Even just the laundry. Or the dishes. Or the fact I have a dirty kitchen floor. None of these things will cause the earth to shift its course, no. Yet they weigh on the spirit if you let them.

So how to stay focused? Devotion. I've realized it takes attention, foster, love, and commitment to your dreams. If you drop them, they will melt and fall beneath the surface of the makings of everyday life. Yet if you foster and hold them tender, I think it's possible they become a part of your everyday life.

This is what I'm embarking on. It's simply and totally huge and enlivening. I'm so not sure how it will look and evolve, and that's precisely how I know I'm on the path to success.